Introductions

Me

Oh hi there, welcome to my blog. It’s so nice to meet you! My name is Danielle and I’m a happily married 30-year-old mother of two. That’s what I am supposed to say right?

Marriage status, check. Age, check. Number of children, check. Wrong.

Do I have an amazing husband? Yes! Am I 30? Yes (and proud of it, quite frankly our 20’s are so overrated) Do I really have two children? I sure do, I’ll introduce them later. And now for the toughest question – am I happy? This is where I get stuck. If I say I am unhappy does it make me a bad wife? An unfit mother? Does it make me ungrateful for all the obvious blessings in my life? Surely millions of people have it worse off than I do.

The truth is that despite all the happiness my life brings me, I am not happy with myself. I would go so far as to say I never have been. I think that’s the first time I’ve said or rather written that word. Never. How does one live a third of their life without being happy in their own skin?

So who am I really? I’m a 30-year-old woman trapped in a grossly unhealthy body that holds me back from doing the things I want to do. From being the person I’m meant to be. I’m a 30-year-old woman suffering from a mental illness who drowns her sorrows in unhealthy foods and an even unhealthier lifestyle. I’m a mom of two young boys who can barely keep up with them. I am strong. I am determined. I am capable. I am committed to doing this once and for all. But what is “this?” Well, it’s my journey to a healthier life – body, mind and soul. I’m sure there will be a healthy mix of procrastination in here, hell I’ve had this blog ready to go for weeks before I could bring myself to hit the daunting publish button.

Marie Kondo has influenced a shit ton <insert a factual number here> of people around the world to declutter their lives with her book, the life-changing magic of tidying up. To get rid of physical things that don’t bring them joy. Yes she’s mostly talking about things around the home – old books, clothing, knick knacks etc. Sarah Knight did a Ted Talk and a complimentary book encouraging people to declutter their lives of the non-physical things in our lives holding us back. She calls it, the life-changing magic of not giving a f*ck. I used Marie Kondo’s reasoning to convince my husband I needed a new car as my minivan brought me no joy. Nope, none. But it’s Sarah Knight’s method that really struck home. After all, who doesn’t want to stop spending time we don’t have with people we don’t like doing things we don’t want to do. F*ck that. All kidding aside, I feel like both women’s philosophies are so linked to this perpetual journey of mine.

And perpetual it will be. This isn’t a quick fix. It’s not a one-time deal. It’s something I will have to work at for the rest of my life. And so it’s time to put my money where my mouth is. Because in the simplest of terms, I have too much to lose if I don’t. I have too much life left to live and I refuse to do it unhappily. I refuse to look back in 20 years and see the same person in the mirror. I refuse to be the mom sitting on the sidelines vs. the one running with her children at the park. I refuse to set the precedent for my boys that this is what healthy looks like.

I can’t promise this blog is what you are looking for. I can’t promise it will inspire you or motivate you. I can’t promise I’ll be successful in what I’m here to accomplish. What I can promise is that what you see [read] is what you get with me. The honest, sometimes scary, and completely vulnerable battle of losing weight & maintaining it with a mental illness. I promise this is real life. I promise to share the good, the bad, the ugly. This is my story, and welcome to it.

 

23 thoughts on “Introductions

  1. Such a heart written piece that will touch so many Danielle! Thank you for sharing your heart and soul with us! I am so proud of you and am with you every step of the way! xo

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    1. Couldn’t do this without you Jenn, your beautiful and patient encouragement is what’s going to help me be successful. Very grateful for your support and presence in my life ❤️

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  2. It takes great courage to admit that we are unhappy with ourselves, and even greater courage to share this publicly.
    I look forward to following along with your journey as a source of ideas and inspiration to improve my our life!

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  3. I’m so proud of you for so many things, love,,,, and now for this. You bare your heart and soul with raw honesty to help yourself and to help others. I’m just sad that I didn’t see this, that I couldn’t help you through all the years I’ve known you and loved you. I guess this is a journey you were meant to navigate in your own time. I will always be here for you to help in any way I can. I hope you know that. Love you so much, my brave, beautiful, girl! Mamma xoxo😘

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    1. Mamma, you’ve helped me more than you could imagine. Always my biggest supporter, always cheering me on in whatever crazy fad diet I tried. This is something I’ve put on the back burner and I take full responsibility for that. It’s no one else’s burden to carry but my own. As a mama myself now I obviously understand why you feel that way. And I know you’ll be in my corner always and forever ❤️❤️❤️

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  4. Awww D, so proud of you for sharing your story! You are a strong and amazing person, thinking of you and look forward to reading more xXxX

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  5. So PROUD to be your sister 🙂 you are one of the STRONGEST and bravest people I know! I am in your corner cheering you on always and forever!!!!! Also, as always, your way with words blows my mind 😉 LOVE YOU

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  6. I am so proud of you, Danielle. I’ve always known you to be strong and determined and I have no doubt that you will come through this journey stronger and happier. I’m rooting for you and want to send you all the love in the world.

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  7. Hi!

    I just discovered your blog and I feel like I am going to enjoy it a lot. Even though I am just a student of 21 years old, I recognized myself in some of the tings you said and I am also on a new journey trying to find happiness by being “a better me”. This is why I am really interested in reading your blog, hoping it can help me on my journey. So, Thank you for sharing your experience!!

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