Changing the dialogue.
Oh hi there, welcome to my blog. It’s so nice to meet you! It’s been several years since I started this blog and thought it was time to reintroduce myself. I initially started this blog to hold myself accountable to losing weight and living a healthier lifestyle. And while that’s still important to me, the direction of this blog has definitely changed.
So who am I? I’m a 34-year-old mother of two wildly active boys. I’m married to an incredible man who is my absolute rock. You can learn more about them on my updated About Me page here. I have an incredible support system, who I refer to as my home team. I live with bipolar type 2 with mixed features and borderline personality disorder. I also struggle with depression and anxiety. While they are absolutely scary mental illnesses, they are gravely misunderstood.
For the most part, I live a pretty happy life. And that’s definitely what my Instagram feed will show you. But I also fight to live this happy life. Some days it’s hard to get out of bed. Some days my moods change so rapidly it’s honestly ridiculous. Some days I just want to end it all. Those are things we aren’t used to sharing, certainly not on a public forum like a blog. But that’s why I’m here. I’m here to help end the stigma around mental health and change the dialogue.
I want my boys to grow up in a world where it’s okay to live openly with a mental illness. A world where not only those who can afford it have access to the appropriate support. A world where mental illness is taken seriously and treated like any other disease. A world where less people die by suicide because of their inability to be heard, to be seen and to cope.
I can’t promise this blog is what you are looking for. I can’t promise it will inspire you or change your mind on mental health. I can’t promise you won’t be uncomfortable reading what I plan to share. (Though I do promise to always warn of possible triggers so that my readers only read what they can personally handle.) I can’t promise I’ll be successful in what I’m here to accomplish. What I can promise is that what you see [read] is what you get with me. The honest, sometimes scary, and completely vulnerable battle of living with several mental illnesses. I promise this is real life. I promise to share the good, the bad, the ugly. This is my story, and welcome to it.